Storm in my head
Updated: Dec 24, 2022
Yesterday I was eating an apple at home. I was outside so I threw the apple core into our garden.
I live with a flatmate who saw what I did. “What are you doing?” she yelled at me.
Shocked at her negative reaction, I replied “putting the apple in the garden”.
“That’s not good!” she shouted.
What could be wrong with putting apple in the garden? I thought to myself.
“Food scraps attract predators like rats and mice, which can come into our house”, she said.
I had never heard such crazy news.
So, under my breath I said “I can’t do anything”.
She heard me and went inside.
I was extremely angry.
I went to my room and checked my phone.
Within one minute she had messaged me. “We live in a reserve so we are not meant to throw stuff in the bush”
And she backed it up by posting an article from the government which read:
“Food scraps can take years to break down and they feed predators like rats and mice”.
I was furious. I felt like she was out to get me.
I looked back on my mind through meditation that night. I started to see objectively why the situation happened.
Even before the apple event, I was already holding a lot of negative mind towards her. In a way, I created the whole situation.
I did not have the true mind inside me. I had false mind inside me. I was not humble. It was just a matter of time before my cold attitude towards my flatmate came back on me.
Meditation taught me I am living inside my own mind world.
The method to go to heaven while living is to cleanse the self-centred body and mind from this great universe and even cleanse the false conceptions of the universe. Then the pure universe remains. This existence is Truth.
Through introspection, I could also see my mind that thinks “I am right”.
I thought that throwing apple in the garden was absolutely the right thing to do.
However, when I see from my flatmate’s perspective, I can see she is right. Our house would benefit from having no mice as well.
It’s a small example and seems like nothing. However, meditation has helped me accept my reality. If I didn’t find meditation, I would have got so angry to the point I would have moved house. I would have tried to change my external environment, which would probably create more stress as I would have to find another place to live.
Being able to accept my reality has improved my happiness.
Why not try meditation so you can accept your current life?
D.Clouston, Auckland Meditation